and she arrived from the far gateway in the skies but you don’t remember she stands faithful by your side for your eyes did cast fearful shadows in the sunlight and rainbows failed the hidden rain of dusky twilight
but she loves you still as sure as the seasons turn and you know she’s as true as the passions you burn for whispering rhythms of her heart you nightly hear even midst the rage at the wounds you drown in tears
Goddess energy, moon goddess energy, the divine feminine: all of these labels are common terms within the twin flame collective. It is truly inspiring to see women returning to their sense of power and beauty. I myself have spent many years working in a very masculine profession – software engineering – and I would often struggle in my attempt to be more like the “guys”. I was expected to be like them in order to compete for the same jobs, salary, bonuses, etc. It seemed to me to be the only way. And I watched other women around me grow hard, powerful, willful, unbending. But for me – and I am sure many of them – it was an uncomfortable, albeit profitable, undertaking. But it never truly felt like “me”.
Fast forward to the present. I, like many other men and women, find myself on the twin flame journey. However, we all know how most of the awakened ones in this twin flame journey are the women. After all, the men seem to be the ones running away from this connection out of fear, attachment, or limited awareness of how profound and life changing this connection is.
As a result of this perception of the sleeping male beauty, many twin flame feminines are choosing to go it alone. They are choosing to stand in their power by discovering who they are, what they want out of life, and how they are going to be of service to humanity. They are collectively supporting each other in what appears to be a community of women, a nation of the matriarchy, a return to the power of the self proclaimed goddess, free and unbounded by masculine templates, restrictions, and requirements, all the things that made me and other women so uncomfortable in both work and social situations.
But what if this was all an illusion? What if the female is still bounded by the illusions of the reality she believes she has awakened to? What if the masculine isn’t actually less asleep than she is. What if she is the one who is still the sleeping beauty and that she just hasn’t allowed the masculine to find her, not because he just doesn’t get it yet and is slow, but because the feminine is supposed to provide the groundwork for the masculine. Support, not blame and criticism is what is required here. But so many women in the collective have been giving up and have surrendered, saying that they will take this journey without their divine masculines. Many have been doing this for many, many years. And many have been calling this surrender.
What if it isn’t surrender that many are doing. Based on this reading, it appears as if instead of surrendering, many women have been using their own power to deny the masculine theirs.
Spirit is revealing to me that this is in fact the case. There are many feminines in the collective who are taking their own self empowerment too far; so far that the masculine doesn’t even have a chance.
Let us see what Spirit might be trying to tell us.
The layout is simple of this spread is simple. I have drawn two rows of seven cards. The First row uses the Rider-Waite deck and indicates the main message of this spread. The second Row uses the Energy Oracle Deck by Sandra Anne Taylor and simply confirms, strengthens or clarifies the first row.
The topic of this message is Moon Goddess Energy. We have the The Moon card in the first row and the Goddess of the Moon card in the second. We couldn’t be more clear on what Spirit is trying to tell us.
The first card I drew is The Moon. It also shows up as the Goddess of the Moon card in the second row. Before I proceed, let us just get a little background on the meaning of The Moon card.
The Moon card in the Rider-Waite deck is placed after the The Star and before The Sun. The Star indicates renewal, hope, new beginnings. The Star displays a naked feminine being guided by the great Star, a masculine principle of the night sky. She is lead by him. He gives her light so that she might carefully poor the water into the earth, to create rivers, lakes, oceans, seas perhaps. Now in The Moon card that woman has become a goddess of illumination, imagination, duality, dreams, and possibilities. She is the goddess of intuition. She inspires power into the realm of the dream and inspiration. She has the power to conceive of what even might seem impossible. However, she cannot manifest without the Sun. Her light is his light reflected. The Sun is the masculine principle in his full glory. A child is in the Sun card while the feminine moon is now hidden from view. Both the masculine and the feminine have worked together to create this child of joy, wonder, and happiness. The emphasis is on together.
Now in our spread, The Sun card is absent. All we see is the moon. And we even see two of them, one in the first row and the second in the next row! Instead of the Sun card, we see the Fool reversed (which incidentally includes the sun). The masculine is being exposed to the power of the dream, illusion, new possibilities, and intuitive creativity: all energies that are required before manifestation. But the Fool reversed indicates that the masculine, instead of being encouraged to discover this strange new world, to risk it all to be in it and to create from within it, he is literally made to be the Fool, who doesn’t know what he is doing, where to begin. He is in overwhelm and will very likely give up. The feminine in her extreme power becomes an uncontrollable volatile power. She is beautiful and terrible at the same time and he is consequently both attracted and repelled. He feels he is being set up for failure, and she is becoming exasperated with him. And the more exasperated she becomes, the more volatile and beautiful and terrible she appears: she is always increasing her power as the masculine begins to recede and step away. Thus, we have the Action card reversed. There is no action, no manifestation, no progress in the union between the two on earth. Separation begins. The horses run away in fear.
The reversed Nine of Wands continues this story, as the masculine, no matter what he does, no matter how much energy he manages to muster and attempt to cultivate in the soil, he will never be able to giver her what and how she wants it. She is moving too rapidly and becoming powerful too quickly. He cannot keep up. It is like trying to chase and tame a tornado. Her own transformation in this twin flame journey is happening at such an accelerated pace, that he will not be able to keep up with her enough to feel like he can get anything out of it. And so we have the Cornucopia card. Her power, her gifts, the depth of her light and love is clearly abundant to him. But he is overwhelmed. His only choice is to abandon his post.
And so we then have the reversed Two of Cups. Now the upright Two of Cups points to a relationship that is on equal footing, both are offering their cups of equal size. Both are honoring each other. They are in love. But since this is reversed, there is division between the two. The division is the infamous “separation” of the twin flame dynamic as mentioned above. This separation is usually blamed upon the runner of the two and usually the masculine is perceived as the one who is doing the running. But Spirit is telling us that the cause of separation is within the powers of both. But note the Man Holding a Heart card. This card indicates that the masculine loves his feminine. The separation is not due to lack of love, but simply a lack of balance in this space and in this time. The only way for separation to not happen is if the energies of both are balanced: the feminine providing and empowering the creative and potential energy of the union, and the masculine providing the work and manifestation of that union. The masculine must be given space and time to complete his work. He needs this. She needs to let him do that. The feminine’s close relationship to intuition and dreams allows her to see so many possibilities and avenues and options. – and very quickly. This is the reason why she can become too demanding, impatient, and frustrated with the masculine. The masculine is about grounding her energy, choosing something and manifesting it deeply and in a way that it will last forever. It is very slow going not because he is lazy or awakened, but because work takes lots of time and energy in this third dimensional reality. He is not interested in chasing dreams like rainbows, but choosing one and making it stick and remain on the earth. But if the feminine is imbalanced, she will overwhelm the masculine, not allowing him to even get started. She becomes a tidal wave upon his shore, ever removing the sandcastles he begins to build. She will not allow him the time and space to manifest the heaven on earth she wants.
It is important to note that the feminine is more aware of the name and nature of this twin flame connection, because she can see it in its potential, in its dream state, in its infancy. But she will not get anywhere without manifestation in union on earth today or tomorrow in this life. In that sense, she is just as misguided as the masculine is, but in a different way. She doesn’t fully understand her large role in causing the separation- yet.
Let us continue to look.
The next card is the Six of Wands. The Six of Wands shows a man upon a horse who is apparently celebrating his own victory. This is the false victory that the feminine celebrates when she feels her own power within herself and within the feminine community. It is false simply because of the context of this card. It is upright because she believes it is in fact true, and she tells herself that she is somehow more in tune and more awakened than her masculine counterpart. The Fifth Chakra reversed card in the second row indicates that this in fact the lie and that the feminine suffers an imbalance in her throat chakra. The victory can never manifest through her mere words. The lack of victory could never be made more clear than the next card. Until the feminine removes herself from the he vs she, us vs them polarity, the separation will continue.
The Emperor reversed is a powerful statement about the position of the masculine energy inside the world of the divine feminine. He has been completely turned upside down. This card indicates a breakdown of the masculine will and power – the power to manifest in the world, the power to make things happen, the power to procreate with the feminine. Again, the separation and wild nature of the feminine has made this impossible for him. Even if he wants to, even if he longs to be with her, he feels scared, overwhelmed and terrified of doing her wrong. He prefers to go it alone, and of course, in the process he diminishes his own power, as he strays further and further from his own power which must receive energy from his feminine in order to blossom. She in turn, as seen through the “All Tied Up” card reversed has been set free. In fact, both have been set free and both of them are dis-empowered as a result. The wide separation between the masculine and the feminine always leads to extreme behavior within both, that is destructive to both and to the world. For those who are interested, there is a tragic play written by Euripides called The Bacchae which deals with this very issue when the women become seduced by the wild Dionysus. They abandon their feminine roles in civilization for the wild. The consequences are catastrophic both for man and woman.
The reversed Three of Swords illuminates the end and purpose of all of this separation, namely, to heal the feminine’s broken heart – and the masculine’s as well. The separation is for healing the pain caused by each other upon each other. This is why waiting for your twin to return without doing the healing work will lead to prolong separations and prolonged agony. The Door to Romance is currently shut during this healing process because having these two powerful energies together when they are at such extremes in their powers will cause them to destroy each other, and not only each other but all those close to them and even the world.
I am grateful that Spirit has communicated this message to me, as it reveals the power and beauty of the twin flame separation. Many find it painful and difficult, but we only do so when we are not busy discovering who we are and why we are where we are at this time and place. You are already in union with your twin. There is no true separation except in the way it manifests on this earth in this three dimensional reality. This is just the work we have to do to make the union happen. Feminines need to become more aware of the nature of their own power, not in order to only improve self worth and become cheerleaders for feminine power. Twin flame is not just about self realization, but it is also about self-moderation and balancing of our own inner masculine and feminine powers. Self awareness, awareness of what we are doing, who we are as feminines, who we are as masculines, is key to awakening. And the majority of us – if not all of us – are not completely awakened yet. We are still mostly asleep in our beauty. But we are learning, we are learning to balance and to grow and still maintain that balance. That is the tricky part. It is easy to indulge ourselves in our own power and quickly declare a victory. Let’s try to help each other avoid that and instead remove the need for victory over anything. We are just on a journey, a journey to acquire balance, love,poise and beauty, and most of all, union with our beloved on this blessed Earth.